Saying Goodbye

Posted by Michaela at 01:03 PM on September 23, 2005

Even after an incredibly long cycle (we broke into the triple digits!), even after taking progesterone to make my uterus shed its lining, even after a week of farewell kisses and laughing about how I nearly forgot where the mikvah is...it hurts to be niddah again. This morning I woke up, felt a twinge of a cramp, noticed a tiny brown dampness on my thigh (not technically niddah yet)...leaned over, gave the husband a kiss, and headed off to the bathroom with a deep sigh.

I miss him already.

Comments

On September 25, 2005 at 04:32 PM, Avigayil said:

It never ceases to amaze me how the shift toward longing happens so fast, no matter how much of a break there was. It'll be over soon.

On September 25, 2005 at 10:54 PM, Desde said:

I completely emphasize... sometimes I think it's actually harder the longer it's been since you were last niddah. But it won't be so long and you'll be back at the mikvah... best of luck on getting your body to ovulate so you can try for even longer "breaks" from niddah! (That's why the progesterone, right?)

On September 27, 2005 at 11:04 AM, eden said:

sometimes I think it's actually harder the longer it's been since you were last niddah.

I can see that. You'd get so used to that good night kiss, to falling asleep in the same bed, it might be an even ruder shock to suddenly go without...

I hope Desde & Avigayil are right, and you'll be back together soon.

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